what the ACTUAL fuck is the general vibe of today.

permanently exhausted human who is bad at everything: a memoir

busket:

mutuals if i like your negative posts please just imagine me patting u on the back comforting you, not like i actually like that you’re hurt

dad left today, and i am trying to be a functional 31 year old. I am not easily able to be around almost anyone, so the few people I don’t have to hold my breath around are precious to me.

I emailed Leigh Ann after years because I missed her so intensely out of the blue. she replied right away - instant joy, followed by heart-aching for her and helena. life is so strange, lovely, and hurtful all at once.

I spoke with an Indigenous woman from Iqaluit this morning at a bus stop. she is in Ottawa for brain cancer treatments. she told me the ice won’t melt off the lake where she lives until she returns. “nature wouldn’t dare tempt me with the knowledge I could be out on a boat.” I asked her about fishing - she likes to fish/hunt narwhal, but said it’s best when the orcas push the narwhal onto the beach for her, as they are very heavy.

project your fears onto me, I need to view them - see there’s nothing to them